
I wish there were some way I could describe this book without using the word “shame,” but it’s impossible. This book is about our national shame. These are not words that I choose lightly: before approximately 2001 I had never felt shame for my country. When reading The Dark Side, that emotion is unavoidable. It is the most painful book I have read in a long time, possibly ever. (Lolita is a competitor. Another description for another time.) I was in tears by one point and had to put it down on several occasions.
But it is an absolutely necessary book to read, to own, and to reread. If we know anything at all about the Bush administration’s torture hobby, it’s because of a few journalists like Jane Mayer and Sy Hersh. While the rest of the media and Congress lay down before the Bush administration, these brave reporters were out making us proud. Own it to reward Mayer, and reread it every year or so to remind yourself that it could happen again.
It almost certainly will happen again. This is the heartbreaking conclusion that I took away from The Dark Side. At the moment, the only thing keeping us from torturing suspected terrorists is that our president told his government not to. A future president could just as easily issue a stroke of the pen in the other direction, and we’d be torturing again. The next time we do it, the CIA will take care not to leave as many traces around — just as presidents since Nixon know not to turn on the tape recorder.
Indeed, Mayer’s book strongly suggests — without saying so — that she’s only scratched the surface. At least a handful of prisoners died on the CIA’s watch, their names apparently lost to history forever. Think of the horror in that: your neighbor or mine, his life wiped from the world’s memory, his family terrified about what may have happened to him. He lies in a mass grave somewhere, dumped there casually by a soldier who will forget his name as quickly as history does. At least half of the responsibility that we can bring to a book like The Dark Side is to rescue these poor human beings from anoymity. Mayer inspires a ritual: saying something out loud like “His name is Ahmed. He had two beautiful children. He was tortured and killed because we elected George W. Bush.”
I want to focus on the disappearances. Navy SEALs, for instance, tortured Manadel al-Jamadi to death sometime between midnight on November 4, 2003 and 5 a.m. that same day. The CIA snatched Khaled el-Masri from Macedonia, tortured him for months without telling Masri’s family of his disappearance, then let him go. These men, and literally countless others like them, were guilty of no crime. Their lives were either destroyed or ended on the U.S. government’s watch.
I don’t fully understand the self-interested logic that drove the torturers to keep such meticulous records, but they did; if anything, the law seems to have helped us toward a full accounting of our government’s torture. The CIA knew that it might be in legal jeopardy, so CIA officers were in constant contact with Langley to ask whether they could step up their prisoner abuse: is one slap all right? How about one slap after forcing the prisoner to go without sleep for 48 hours? How about a slap plus sleep denial plus forcing him to stand for eight hours straight? (Apparently forced standing is agony.) The CIA agents were sadists, but they apparently also were eager to cover their asses. The threat of prosecution drove them to document their bosses’ approval.
The bosses, all the way up, approved. Addington, Cheney, and even Bush received intimate details of how particular suspects were being questioned. Most members of the executive branch seemed eager to please Cheney and Addington, or to give George Bush the big score against terrorists that he wanted. The ass-kissing went all the way up to CIA director George Tenet and Attorney General Alberto Gonzales. Everything I’ve read suggests that Gonzales was gutless and deferred in everything to Addington. I wonder whether Gonzales sleeps well at night, or whether the dream of a rifle butt smashing an anonymous prisoner’s skull over and over wakes him with a scream.
It was the rare government lawyer who said no. Jack Goldsmith did, as did Goldsmith’s mentor James Comey. What saved the U.S. government just a little bit was that Goldsmith — as head of the Office of Legal Counsel — had intestinal fortitude that no one else, including Goldsmith’s own boss, had. Goldsmith could (barely, it must be noted) stand up to Addington; Gonzales could not.
In short, what seems to have kept our government from torturing whomever it pleased were the actions of a few people — Jane Mayer, Jack Goldsmith, James Comey — while everywhere else it was night. We can’t expect these people to always be there for us. It’s not just that “the price of democracy is constant vigilance”; the price of democracy is that we rely on a few people to guard us while we sleep, armed only with pen and paper. And we have no reason to believe that they’ll always be there. The Dark Side, by its own shining example, is not encouraging.
This book has seriously made me reconsider my life. When I die, do I want to be known as someone who could get an algorithm’s running time down to log n, or as someone who helped stop torture? It’s that kind of book, because Mayer is that kind of author.
A note on language: The unfortunate effect of discussing torture as much as we must is that words lose their power. The word “torture” itself feels deflated by now, as does even a more-vivid phrase like “waterboarding.” Even if you call waterboarding something more harrowing, like “simulated drowning”, the words are stripped of force through use. Reading a book like Mayer’s is important because it overcomes this dulling. In a less-skilled author’s hands, a few hundred pages describing government-sanctioned torture would weaken the force of the word “torture” still more. Mayer manages to leave the word sharp, and the reader’s wounds raw, while telling a gripping, heartrending story.
I’d like to close with Malcolm Nance’s description of waterboarding in The Dark Side. Nance subjected hundreds of soldiers to waterboarding as part of their training and underwent it himself. Again, we tend to call waterboarding “simulated drowning”; Nance says of this, “It’s not simulated anything. It’s slow-motion suffocation with enough time to contemplate the inevitability of blackout and expiration — usually the person goes into hysterics on the board. … You can feel every drop. Every drop. You start to panic. And as you panic, you start gasping, and as you gasp, your gag reflex is overriden by water. And then you start to choke, and then you start to drown more. Because the water doesn’t stop until the interrogator wants to ask you a question.”